I have excuses, but im fucking up.

I want to run away, off my self, whatever. I can’t, I wont do that to my kids. But I think about it a lot.

My patience is getting shorter and shorter. Again, I have excuses and maybe id give myself grace but im not getting better im getting worse.

I don’t see how I fit into my life besides my kids. Everything else is just me doing what I feel like im supposed to do.

I just caused a big fight calling out my wife for shit she’s not doing when she has to deal with me being a slug. I cant say shit, or at least I shouldnt but she asked me or alluded to me doing something I cant do easily because of my foot injury and she knows it and I got defensive and got on her about her shit. It blew up.

I not getting at anything here just trying to get it off my chest

  • TheOrcWhoWrites@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    3 months ago

    All of that is directly tied to perspective. You could easily reframe it to something good. Cognitive reframing is your friend. It helps you look at a seemingly bad situation and see the good, even if miniscule, that came out of it. Sometimes you really have to look. If you have learned anything from the experience that counts as good. If you didn’t, you need clearer hindsight. To achieve that, you must introspect yourself and do a social autopsy of all your actions leading up to it, and ask yourself, “What could I have done differently” This takes practice but it really helps add meaning to stressful situations.