Ex-egg. Turns out wishing you were a girl does work.

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Cake day: July 2nd, 2024

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  • Good! Loving the effects of HRT. It’s definitely “magic is real” levels of mind-blowing. Although more than that is how not bad I feel since allowing myself to … be myself. No more “what if I was a girl”, no more “I wish I could fill out this sweater”, no more “I’m wasting my life”, no more meat-puppet, no more waiting to die.

    I’m trans, and it’s awesome. (Can my beard just go away now kthx)

    Oh, and I finally reached the summit in Celeste. Take that, self-doubt.









  • Three (and a bit) months into HRT, and seeing the effects more and more :3 Definitely starting to look more feminine, at least from certain angles. I’ve been trying to train myself to maintain a slight smile, rather than my default scowl which doesn’t look good at all. Voice is getting better but still wandering into husky / screechy a bit too often.

    I just wish my (somewhat curly) hair would grow out of the awkward phase a bit faster. I suppose I could get regular trims and have it styled professionally, but I think I’d rather have the length sooner.

    If I can step up my makeup game a bit, I might actually have a chance of passing soon! (Yeah, right…)




  • Thanks for the reassurance! Yeah, voice is an interesting one. I’m using my new voice all the time now (similarly, I just can’t stand to go back), although it’s still a bit hit-and-miss, and wanders around a lot from day to day as I try out different things. Reactions have ranged from warmer tones and smiles from strangers, to “your voice is different” from people I meet occasionally, and “what do you mean, voice training? Your voice is the same as always” from people I work with. Sadly (?) there isn’t a sir/ma’am distinction here like there is in English, so it’s difficult to know how people perceive me.

    Anyway, I went to an on-site event (including people I’m not explicitly out to) the other day in at least fem-adjacent wear with not-very-subtle bra bumps, and didn’t get any awkward questions or comments. So I’m going to assume it’s all in my head and keep pushing my comfort boundaries.