Caption: After I post deranged memes despite being innocent af

Picture of a girl giggling sinisterly by @Senukin69

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Needless to say, I’m not much of a slut or a rebel in real life, nor am I a confrontational person. I almost always let other drivers cut in front of me (they must be in more of a rush than I am), I always try to stay out of people’s way(on the road and everywhere else), and I’m overly considerate(I don’t like making others unhappy) 😖

I’m a huge wuss by nature. I’ve had to learn to be assertive, but my default reaction is always caution. I was a goodie-two-shoes as a kid. I only needed to be told not to do something once, not because I was scared of punishment, but because I was scared of harming someone. I’ve been drunk once and I’ve never gotten high. I’m honestly ashamed of how boring I am. I want to try life more, but I don’t even know where to start 😥

  • tunasyne@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    6·
    2 months ago

    that depends on what you define living life as. nothing wrong with bein a goody 2 shoes but it sounds like you’re just looking for life to be exciting (which i am too tbh). the most basic approach imo is to gather a group of friends and bust out some booze or weed really. just don’t drink too much and drink plenty of water bcz shit will suck in the morning (or sooner depending on how much you drink).

    also ive found that joining random clubs at college is hella fun. like, learning to fence is like whaaaa, n if there’s an improv club?? :O that club was my reason for living istg it was so much fun

    • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldOPMEnglish
      2·
      2 months ago

      You’re right. The biggest problem is how risk averse I am. It has kept me very safe, but it’s also prevented me from meeting and connecting with people. Taking the leap of transitioning got delayed because I was scared. It wasn’t until I realized I couldn’t live without making it that I committed. I mainly don’t want to hold myself back in fear any longer.

      • tunasyne@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
        2·
        2 months ago

        if its a fear of meeting new people i totes get that. like, meeting strangers kinda sucks n there’s the risk they’re not good people. there’s that saying that’s like “strangers are just friends you haven’t met yet” or somefin like that, but that’s generic advice imo. what worked for me was finding out what people are interested in an being interested in that. ik it’s kinda weird and almost sounds like bein a social chameleon but imo people tend to connect more with people who have similar interests or show interest in what they care about, so when i showed effort in learning/engaging about the things they were interested in we ended up talking more.

        also people love to talk about themselves so ask a ton about them, but also like actually listen to and care about what they’re sayin. that’s what worked for me for the most part (obvs sometimes its not gonna work cuz humans are a very varied species)

  • AscendantSquid@lemm.eeEnglish
    3·
    2 months ago

    I don’t think you should feel ashamed at all, from your description I feel like we’re very similar lol

    I’ve also been trying to be less cautious and more open, and the way I’ve been doing it is to be weird in front of people. Not maliciously, but I want people to have a funny story to tell their friends, and I’m less worried about feeling embarrassed in front of strangers because I’m never gonna see them again. I’m not interested in weed or alcohol at all, and this has been working so far.

    Don’t be discouraged, I like the way I am, I bet I’d like the way you are too, so I hope this helps

  • Smorty [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    2·
    2 months ago

    I really like the honesty of this one. There are way too many memes about people feeling all special cuz they do a thing in a totally quirky way. Also yeah I get you. People be talking of parties and constant excitement like it is a given…