Hi all. Been taking lamotrigine off label from my psych provider. Intended to help with emotional instability.

I have been slowly titrating up. Had some ups and downs but now I feel like I’m nearly at the worst I’ve ever been.

I have been on 200 for the past 3 weeks. My mood has not stabilized in that time and I am getting much worse.

A few days after the increase to 200 my coworker noticed an immediate and dramatic negative shift in mood and appearance. Prior to that, I was on 150 for 5 weeks. Initially I was doing pretty good but I had a steady decline for the entirety of the 5th week before I was upped to 200.

My bros please help. This is destroying my career and relationships. It has immediate and significant impacts on my life.

I sent my provider an urgent message in her portal but yeah I need to figure out this shit asap.

Not sure if I am having a paradoxical reaction to every psych med I am trying or what??? Also yes I am in therapy but in the process of changing to one who is a lot more strucutred in her approach and less of a talk therapist.

  • dingus@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
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    3 months ago

    Lol I won’t accuse you of spam. Don’t worry.

    Do you take anything now?

    I was initially on an SSRI but it didn’t help with that sort of thing either for me and I was also wondering if I was making me worse. :( The psych provider switched me to lamotrigine because I was still struggling and it was failing to alleviate that, but I’m not sure if this is harming my brain. I’m probably just some science experiment where they are fucking my brain up for fun.

    Lamotrigine is actually specifically for the depressive part of bipolar disorder is the thing tho. I don’t have that…but if I did, it’s designed to help it.

    • Apytele@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
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      3 months ago

      I’m still on the lamictal I figured I should give it a fair shot and like I said I don’t feel like it does anything but it’s not hurting me and the doctor keeps prescribing it. I also currently take a low dose seroquel as a sleep aid. More importantly the one chemical imbalance I definitely do have is ADHD, for which I take clonidine at bedtime and strattera when I wake up. I also take a variety of supplements, in particular magnesium for mood / sleep and NAC for dermatillomania.