The original post: /r/pcgaming by /u/Think_Run_3504 on 2025-01-22 16:50:37.

You might think I’m an idiot, but I’ll start from the top. Ever since I was a kid, I’ve been into gaming. I was also super hyped about e-sports. I tried out so many games, but every single time it ended the same—I just didn’t feel like logging in and playing anymore.

When I was around 13, I got into Fortnite and grinded hard. Like, really hard. But then I lost the drive to play. Looking back now, I honestly think I had potential. If I had kept grinding, I might’ve achieved at least some level of success, big or small. But oh well. After that, I had a few phases with Counter-Strike. I’d get hyped, play for a week or two, and then lose interest again. I actually did pretty well in CS too—out of 150 matches, I managed to hit level 10 on Faceit.

Recently, I started playing LoL. I was always one of those people who hated on LoL just because everyone else did, but I gave it a shot. For about a month, I was super into it, like really hyped. I started thinking, “Maybe I finally found the game I’ve been looking for. Maybe I can actually give this a shot.” I know LoL e-sports is on a whole different level and even getting into semi-pro takes an insane amount of grinding. But hey, Rome wasn’t built in a day, right? I just wanted to find a game I could stick with and grind, hoping that maybe someday I could turn it into something bigger.

But now it’s been two months, and I can’t bring myself to log in anymore. The worst part? When I’m at school, I actually feel like playing. But obviously, I can’t. Then I get home, and I’m exhausted. All I wanna do is sit and watch YouTube. And while I’m watching YouTube, I keep thinking about that childhood dream that’s still with me. I still really want to get into e-sports.

I know people here aren’t psychologists, but I’m starting to wonder—maybe it’s TikTok and the constant overstimulation from today’s world. Maybe it’s burnout from gaming, or who knows what. Whatever it is, it’s insanely frustrating to deal with this day in and day out. This isn’t a joke or bait—I’m genuinely struggling with this.

Also, I’m writing this using a translator, so sorry for any mistakes.