Nothing but a ventpost. I’ve been touching grass and really doing heavy org shit within the empire for a while now and while some comrades are incredible and synthesize theory + human empathy perfectly, others seem to just grandstand as these “scientific beings” that really are just emotionally bankrupt and care zero about anything but “resolving the next contradiction” which is just fucking ridiculous and cult-like.

The world isn’t so simple to view things in just this framework and to think that ML-ism will give us all the answers is not only stupid but anti-ML. I am struggling heavy at this point and I beg all of you who are organized to be reasonable and kind to your fellow humans. We aren’t just comrades, we are friends, and if you find yourself becoming robotic or forgetting that, you’re not a “consolidated communist” you’re just fucking traumatized and lacking emotional availability.

I’m going to be taking a break from org work for a few months because of this and some other mental problems, but not before dealing with weird comments about individualism and disappointment and some serious reservations about continuing as a real life communist period.

Eat me up in the comments about how I’m a liberal, or let me know your thoughts otherwise.

  • SadArtemis [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    2 months ago

    but the part about “unjust peace” resonates with me in some way.

    I used it because it resonated with me as well (it’s a term described by MLK, lambasting “white moderates.”)

    Personally you nailed it- everyone knows (for the right or wrong reasons- hell, nowadays most can recognize at least some of the right reasons) that the system is wholly unsustainable, and wholly unjustifiable. Anyone with the decency to recognize it (sadly this is less common) can recognize the sheer and utter horror of the system- something that has always been present, but which now has reached such intolerable levels once again not seen in a century. And people are sleepwalking, or even if they are aware, trying to look the other way, and it’s like living in an upside-down, bizzaro world.

    So I can put on a face and do the individualist lifestyle dance to a point, but sometimes it feels like putting on a brave face for a kid. I know that would probably sound demeaning to people and places it applies to

    Maybe it sounds demeaning. In truth (while I’m aware sometimes there are good reasons- maybe even “oftentimes” depending on context) it’s both accurate and deserved IMO. We’re doing the song-and-dance while modern-day Hitlers like Genocide Joe, Holocaust Harris, and the mean orange man (and the league of western fascists- equally irredeemable ghouls ranging from Macron to Trudeau or Scholz, etc) march us all to armageddon (and compared to what else is on the table, that may be an optimistic outcome- a quick death). And as you said, the default position- even if it’s not fascist, or even has some awareness and criticism of liberalism, is still just poisoned, biased, or will happily look the other way (for “peace,” after all) as all of the above trample over any notion of basic human decency.