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The original was posted on /r/AmItheAsshole by /u/_RAGGY_BOI on 2023-07-08 12:56:37+00:00.

My Dad (41m) had a triple bypass heart surgery in January and spent almost four months going to physical therapy and made almost a full recovery. The problem is I (17m) made a joke that turned out horrible. Me and my Dad have always been close we would go fishing, fix cars, and he would teach me general life skills and I’ve always been grateful for that and what really made us get along was our very similar sense of humor. When my Dad had his surgery we both made our fair amount of jokes about him passing and life insurance. I know that sounds terrible but it’s just how we are and we were both just trying to stay positive. So about four months after his surgery we had some family over just my two sisters little brother and my dads wife.About an hour into the night he made a joke about me not getting his life insurance yet to which I responded “Its a shame ill have to try harder next time” at that we both laughed for a minute and then continued the conversation as normal. well two days later My dad had a brain aneurism and he didn’t survive. he died pretty quickly I know this because I was the one who had to kick down the door and find him. It’s a horrible feeling and I can’t get it out of my head . my family hasn’t said any thing directly but they don’t look at me anymore. none of them even look me in the eye. I don’t know what to do we were just joking and now he’s gone and my family can’t look at me I’m not sure if I’m a terrible person but it feels like it please tell me if I’m a awful person.