Loss is a long term process and it’s a lifetime of healing.
The first few days after a loss and even the first few weeks are hard especially if you lose someone close to you. But eventually things will become more stable and you will start to get back to your old self again. Eventually you will probably have something that triggers a thought or feeling and it will feel like day all over again. It’s hard and can be discouraging but it is natural.
I recently had this happen and it’s been almost nine months since losing my wife. I sat and cried and felt awful for a couple days, talking with a friend a little bit has helped and I have been working on a little project making some wooden flags to sell for some extra funds which helped a lot. You have to push through and keep going. There is nothing wrong with crying and having those bad days. I have also dealt with them years after losing my son so believe me when I say it is a lifetime of healing but if I can get through it so can you.